This has been more than a bit of an eventful week.
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s a link to a “Go Fund Me” page (Never heard of them before, who knew? Very cool sight though!) I began earlier this week. The shorter “I’m in shock and somewhat panicked” story is there. This is the more intimate version. Any help anyone feels led to give is very appreciated. Including better ways to edit the page, or say what I said LOL! I break down the particulars of the goal amount below.
OK, so I’m one of those “crazy horse people”. Have been for as long as I can remember, and according to my family, from well before that. In 1994 I saw a flyer for a Miniature Horse Show, had that weekend off of work, and went to it. A month later I had my first mini, a 29″ black-bay beautiful little stallion I had fell in love with at the show, he was my tiny “Black Stallion” (for the Walter Farley readers out there). I honestly owe Mr. Farley, as well as CW Anderson and Marguerite Henry a huge debt, as their equine books played a large part in keeping me alive, by giving me an escape as a child.
I have never believed in breeding anything but the best. It is in my opinion, unethical. It is the animal that has to live with the issue, and having some physical issues myself, I can appreciate the pain, fatigue, and mental wear that go into that. I also though am firmly opposed to the “nev
er breed animals if you do you are wrong” camp. If responsible breeders who understand genetics and who love their breed/species don
‘t breed, then all those wonderful genetics are lost, and the only people breeding are the ones we don’t want doing so but have no effective way to stop anyhow…and once again, it is the animals who suffer. But that’s a different subject.
I spent from ’94-98 researching, basically, and did purchase two quality mares during that time. I was, however, looking for a Reason, a niche, some lack that I could fulfill. And, in ’98, I found it, though it took me another year to really decide that. It was the Winks Miniature. Now, Winks Shetlands are well known, and deservedly so. The Winkelmans have been breeding Shetland ponies since the 1880’s, the current Bill is the 4th generation pony man, and I hope one of his sons takes over. Winks Shetlands have formed the foundation of many of the best breeding programs out there, and have been used as the outcross lines for others. But back in ’73 Bill delved into Minis for a short time, a time that ended in ’86 when he was going through some very rough patches in his life. During those 13 yrs, 30 registered Miniatures were foaled that carried the Winks prefix, and at the beginning his foundation mare, Wink Decision, was purchased. By the time I kept running across the name in pedigree after pedigree of Mini that I really respected, and was speaking with breeders who had used the horses in their programs, there were literally a handful left. Sixteen had been lost in ’86…of the remaining 15, 7 were alive, and all but one were into their 20’s.
I was able to bring home 4 of them, though two were past breeding age, and daughters of 3 others. Carefully line breeding, and including outcrosses to exceptional other foundation lines such as FWF Little Blue Boy, Orion Light Van’t Huttenest, and Dels Cowboy, has consistently produced healthy, quality mini horses with wonderful temperaments that have actually primarily ended up in therapy-type homes. I have a Mini on the mission field in Taiwan, one that is a cystic fibrosis therapy horse, one that is part of a literacy program for children, another who is a therapy animal to an Iraq vet with PTSD. Those sorts of things.
I sold most of the herd off earlier this year. It was not what my heart wanted to do, but it happened towards the end of a 6 month major depressive cycle, even though I was on my meds (at max dosage allowed)….I am diagnosed MDD, PTSD, and something else myself. I was suicidal, and in a really bad place, basically. The horses were sold because I wanted them tended if I went through with “it”. And God brought a buyer who wanted to carry on, she said, and we became friends and she actually helped to pull me out of that cycle partially.
Her daughter tracked me down this past week, as they did not have contact info. Kate was severely injured, lost her husband, home, and everything, in a fire the end of July. The horses have been in foster homes, but Kate and I had an agreement that if she ever had to sell them, they’d come back to me, and once she was able to speak again, told her daughter to get in contact with me. I need to bring the horses home. It feels like a fresh start…like a Jesus thing, completely. In the months since selling them, I’ve been floundering…Jesus, what do you want ME to do with my life?? and knowing in my heart that I had given up on what He wanted when I sold them. The horses are to be part of what He has for me to do. It has been a dream for years to use them with abuse survivors and victims, with PTSD patients, with “mental illnesses” like the depression I suffer from. The horses have saved my life more than once, with their soft muzzles and warm hearts and what they somehow know what I need, when I need it, including horsey hugs to their necks, standing with me while I cry and pressing close, etc. What they have done for me, they can also do for others.
All of this said, if I was in a position to purchase them back, it’d have been done already. I am a single mother, had an unexpected move August 1st that has put me in a much better home and property, but had to go in debt to do..and I honestly need help. I would also like to give Kate double what she paid me for them, to help with her medical bills. She will ALWAYS have access to the horses, whenever she is ready visit them again. So, here is the breakdown of the $5000 I am attempting to raise:
- $2500 for Kate
- $1000 for fencing 2 stallion runs and fixing the fence that needs fixing in the field, and gas monies to go get them
- $1500 for another shelter, as the one I have now works for the 3 minis we have left, but will not hold 7, and winter is coming
You can visit my very not-updated website if you want to see some of the horses…www.enyalien.com I have Sonata, Princess, and Two-Bit left of what’s on the site. I would be bringing home Jangles/Classic, Fancy, Silk, and Lillie.
Thank you for prayers, good thoughts, and any help you are able to donate!